Gde to ryadom TI...

[KITTEN]

Sorry, for such a long text guys:)
Years ago, I could'not write short poems. Or may be I had more feelings, I donno:) Anyways, I hope You'll enjoy it:)


Ya ponyala chem ya jila vsyo eto vremya:
Soznaniem chto gde to ryadom Ti.
Chto ne odna nesu ya eto bremya.
Nadeyas' chto ne sojjeni mosti.

Naprasno verya v to, chto vsyo vernyotsya,
I znaya to, chto eto vsyo mechti.
Nadeyas', chto sud'ba mne ulibnyotsya,
Sred' etoy chyornoy, strashnoy pustoti,

I rannim utrom mi v dveryah stolknyomsya.
I sobiraya kipu vipavshih bumag,
Mi robko tak drug drugu ulibnyomsya.
I Ti menya provodish'. Prosto tak...

Ili sluchayno vstretimsya mi v lifte,
Gde ya odna. Odin voydyosh' i Ti.
I schast'e ne pozvolit mne zabitsya...
Uvi, ya znayu, eto vsyo mechti...

Ti uezjaesh'. Nenadolgo, vsyo je,
Kak nekrasivo stalo vsyo vokrug.
Kak pogrustneli vdrug glaza prohojih.
Kak vsyo zavisit ot Tebya moy drug!...

O boje ya i ne podozrevala
Chto Ti odnim dihaniem svoim,
Mne pomogaesh' jit'. Ya ved' ne znala
Chto stal Ti mne takim do slyoz rodnim...

Ya dumala chto vsyo ostalos' v proshlom.
Ved' Ti ushyol. I ya seychas s drugim...
Mne chudilos' smeshnim i nevozmojnim,
Videnie gde v lifte mi stoim...

Ya soglasilas' jit' v vospominan'yah,
Risuya noch'yu v pamyati cherti.
S Toboy vstrechatsya po nocham v viden'yah,
Dnyom prinimaya u drugih cveti...

Da, ya smirilas' daje s tem chto gde-to
Jivyosh i Ti dalyokiy, no rodnoy.
Kak vse vstrechaesh' osen', zimu,leto,
I s sojaleniem proshaeshsya s vesnoy...

Da, ya jivu lish' znaya to chto gde-to,
Jivyosh' so mnoy, pust' pozabiv menya!
Ti v serdce u menya gorish' i lyubish'
I dishish' tem je vozduhom chto ya...

Ya znayu kak smeshno kogda s drugim,
Ne znaesh kak. Molchish'. Ni "da", ni "net"...
A on svoimi chuvstvami gonim,
Zvonit nochami, toje jdyot otvet...

Smeshno. Kogda proshli ne dni. Goda!
Po detskim, glupim shutochkam skuchaesh'.
I znaya chto ushlo vsyo navsegda,
Iz goda v god, vsyo bol'she vspominaesh'...

Dogadivayus' kak smeshno vsyo eto.
Zrya verit v to, chto kanulo v leta.
Zrya jdat' ot etoy pustoti otveta,
Nadeyas' chto vernyotsya. No kogda?!

Ved' Ti uehal. V gorode tak pusto.
V dushe nadejdi ugasaet svet.
Pust' za oknom tak odinoko, grustno,
Idyot kogda-to dolgojdanniy sneg.

Ne mojet on vselit' nadejdu v serdce.
Ne smeysya. Znayu. Glupo, no skorblyu...
Ne smeytes' lyudi!Ya proshu, ne smeytes'!
Ya znayu. Beznadyojno. No lyublyu...

Ya ponyala chem ya jivu na svete:
Soznaniem chto gde-to ryadom ti.
V nochi moey zvezdoy nadejdi svetish',
Darya i ubivaya vse mechti...

Thanks for reading :)

[Mrs. Pachino]

KITTEN, bespodobno :) osobenno vot eti stroki:

" ... Ya soglasilas' jit' v vospominan'yah,
Risuya noch'yu v pamyati cherti.
S Toboy vstrechatsya po nocham v viden'yah,
Dnyom prinimaya u drugih cveti.

... Ya ponyala chem ya jivu na svete:
Soznaniem chto gde-to ryadom ti.
V nochi moey zvezdoy nadejdi svetish',
Darya i ubivaya vse mechti. "

takiye chuvstva eto navernoye edinstvennoye radi chego ne zhal' prozhit, pust' dazhe so slezami na glazax, no znaya chto bila kogda-to lubov, chto bil kogda-to ON i bili chuvstva, pust' dazhe nevospolnimiye i utrachenniye.

mne ochen ponravilos', ya dumayu kazhdaya strochka dayet ponyat' chto ti deistvitel'no prochuvstvovala, prozhila kazhdoy kletochkoy sebya vsyo to o chem glasit tvoy stix. spasibo!!

[Kitten]

Thanx Pachino, ti kak vsegda ugadivaesh' samie vajnie strochki:)
Take care
PS: a kogda "Funny stih" napishem to? :) :)

[ho-ho]

Potryasayushche.Nastol'ko talantlivo,chto ne veritsya prosto,chto tak mozhno pisat'. :)

[Prosto tak]

KITTEN, that was really awesome:)))
I am jealous that I cannot write something like that:)))
Keep it up:)

[Lexis]

Dear Kitten!
Please let me know where I can buy an anthology of those poems. Search for "Kitten" returned no results on Amazon.com. I enjoyed them very much, thanks for doing it.
Lexis