Suicide note

[Parabellum]

P-adic numbers have been developed by a mad mathematician in one of his wild dreams of power, just to screw the heads of the students of all times to come by subjecting them to the obscene molestation of this unfortunate brain-child of a leper. Such is fate that I have come to appreciate this deformity of a creation, this mutated and dried out branch of the science that I once loved and thought to make my destiny. Now please, people, pity me, pity me - because it's not your pity I need the most, but your lives and blood, and flesh and hearts - but you're not going to give me those anyway so - pity me, please…
I went wrong long, long time ago - when I was born, when I was just a bleeding foetus of a man - I went wrong - I got myself born into this world of misery and despair, the world full of pain and not much else…
So - you know by now that I am mad and have been this way for years now. My brains are molten lava burning my head and bubbling my skin in burns of a most lecherous kind…
I'm mad - and there is nothing to it, it's too late for changes and there was never time for them anyhow…
So - somebody, come and kill me in my sleep, be so kind, please, please, please!

I will most likely end up killing myself - I know I will.
Don't let me commit this one more sin - even though I hate being superstitious and letting anyone know just how much I fear the time of accounting, I'm afraid of God - don't let me be a sinner more than I am…
Through my life I have been a coward, in my death I'll be a betrayer - I'll betray everything I stood
for in my life, everything I pretended to stand for…
O, God - let me die in peace I never knew in my life…
Please - someone - strangle me in my sleep so that one beautiful morning there will be no me…
Please, somebody - make it stop…
O, Darkness, why does it pain me so!?…
Make it stop….

[Lord]

Save this message and read it after five years.

[mafia]

Adressizni berin, tezda siz hohlagancha bajaramiz.Return ticketni junatib yoborin. Nilmalarni wrote kilib kuydiz.
take care

[D.R.E.]

As sad as it might look like the reality of fatal injuries to the heartbeat of a man in his deep sleep of unconscious love is truly depicted in different stories or ideas which come to mind in these instances of fastest reactions to betrayal and ignorance. Ignorance and denial of love and passion towards oneself makes the person such as you my dear friend Parabellum, a victim of deepest and tenderest feelings of all in this crazy World, which we call LOVE. I ask you pardon, but look at the eyes of reality and try to see that the things you are doing now is surely headed by hot reactions of yours to coldest denial of your personality! Do not act like a pity man in a thunderstorm of evil atmosphere which was created in your environment of destiny. Try not to make any excuses for yourself saying things like "I went wrong long, long time ago - when I was born..." as its the face of evil saying these words. No matter what but you can't deny the fact how deeply your family and friends love you. So please, my friend, try to remember the warmest feelings you had in your life and try to survive this moment of your life, this test in which you are losing the ground while you should stand still and strong!!!

Best Regards,
Your Friend,
Doctor DRE

[Prosto tak]

Hi, I have read your note, and I don't know why, but it did not seem to me that you are serious, because you still have a lot of things to do in this world, don't even think to leave it not becoming a father and a grandfather.I really do understand that there are situations in your life when you want to say "What the...." (sorry), but this feeling does not last for a long time, maybe a day or so. Don't make yourself to egret, because regret is even worse than a looser (these are not my words, I just picked them up from my very good friend). I believe that there are situations when a suicide is the only way out, but there is no way out only from a coffin:)
Let all your mistakes stay in the past, that is already a history, no one cares anymore, just try not to make them in the future.

sincerely
Prosto tak

p.s believe me I know how it feels, and at that moment you need a good friend:)

[KITTEN]

This is very sad... But I don't pity you, I can't pity you... Coz I think that to see all the misery of the world, a person should go too far, should climb too high, and should achive and win before loosing, so you are not mad, you are just madly clever, what never brings joy to our lives:(
They say in Russian: Durakam vezyot...
A ved' eto je pravda... Ti prosto ne durak, tebe prosto ne povezlo...
Take Care, and don't rush things, we all will die, but no one knows when... Sooner or later, you'll get it, and who knows, may be at that moment you will not be soo happy as you are now... You will understand it, but it will be too late...

[Doctor "Hochu jit]

(OOOOOhhh, nu vot yesho odin patsiyent... A ved' uje konets rabochego dnya. I pochemu eto lyudyam spokoyno doma ne siditsya i ne spitsya?)

-Miliy moy, zapishites' ko mne na priyom zavtra s utra, OK? I ne handrite tak mnogo - vredno dlya zdorovya. Poydite domoy, vipeyte chayku i spat', spat', spat'... Hotya Vi pravi, Jit' toje vredno- lyudi ot etogo umirayut. No nichego-nichego, yahontoviy Vi moy, zavtra prosnyotes i s horroooshim nastroyeniyem srazu ko mne na osmotr, pervim! Nu idite, idite... Taxi, taxi!

Nu a yesli bez shutok, i yesli eto tak seryozno, to deystvitel'no zapishis' ko mne na priyom ili day mne znat'.

Udachi,

Doktor "Hochu jit'"

[kinik]

no me...
be careful dear Parabellum what you wish for... you may get it.